Thank you a lot, but I still facing another problem which that there is a second matter. But, it will be pointless if I say it here since it's related to a specific MTA server. Could you take a look of this topic:
I'm feeling very bad in real life and I can't control myself, even my hands were trembling all the time because of the confusion. Hopefully, you assist me of what I should do there since I did really do something bad intentionally, I just did that because I got threatened. Here is the truth of everything: https://pastebin.com/rWjsr8x7. Well, you're going to say: Sorry, but we can't force a X staff accept your ban appeal or something like that, but the administrator (The owner of the server) doesn't know why did I do that and I swear that I was just scared of them and I haven't at that time a solution except doing that action. I hope you assist me with choosing the right choice because I really need to back to that community.